We all have those moments where we think we aren't quite enough, from the work we do, to the person we are. Today I almost had one, but for whatever reason it rapidly changed to a positive:
Earlier today, we celebrated my co-ordinators new title of 'Professor', (my supervisor is has been a professor for many years, but in terms of paperwork is 'below' the coordinator...figure that one out, anyways I digress), so we cracked open the champagne and cake and all that....well done, yes.
It kind of puts me in that minion status, where I think, well what the hell have I done? I am a lowly Masters student, below the PhD's (who never seem to leave the lab), below the post-docs (who might as well sleep in the lab), below, well, everyone!
Ok, so this seems a self pity thing, diggin that hole, ready to jump in. However, despite the comment 'Oh I'm the only Professor in the family'..... pushing me down a notch, I thought, wait a minute: I'm not leading a completely normal life. I don't really ever sit here and think 'oh this is pants', because it never is- that would be a lie, which completely isn't just. We all want our C.V's to look impressive but I think it's the whole picture that counts. Im not going to list everything I feel I've achieved, but I can sit here with a smile on my face knowing I bet you my life the next person I meet won't have done what I've done, what I've achieved.
There's a fine line between confidence and arrogance, I'm not saying I'm 'better' (whatever that means) than the next person or that they have less status than me; I love people telling me about their achievements- a sense of pride is a great characteristic. Yet, I know I can be proud of my situation, with the knowledge of my achievements. I have a lot more to put on the list and for every small moment where those crazy thoughts come in, 'I'm not enough', all I have to do is remember where I am and what I'm doing.
p.s. 3 Doors Down are upon us Thursday in Stockholm, rock on!! Here's one from the new album:
Earlier today, we celebrated my co-ordinators new title of 'Professor', (my supervisor is has been a professor for many years, but in terms of paperwork is 'below' the coordinator...figure that one out, anyways I digress), so we cracked open the champagne and cake and all that....well done, yes.
It kind of puts me in that minion status, where I think, well what the hell have I done? I am a lowly Masters student, below the PhD's (who never seem to leave the lab), below the post-docs (who might as well sleep in the lab), below, well, everyone!
Ok, so this seems a self pity thing, diggin that hole, ready to jump in. However, despite the comment 'Oh I'm the only Professor in the family'..... pushing me down a notch, I thought, wait a minute: I'm not leading a completely normal life. I don't really ever sit here and think 'oh this is pants', because it never is- that would be a lie, which completely isn't just. We all want our C.V's to look impressive but I think it's the whole picture that counts. Im not going to list everything I feel I've achieved, but I can sit here with a smile on my face knowing I bet you my life the next person I meet won't have done what I've done, what I've achieved.
There's a fine line between confidence and arrogance, I'm not saying I'm 'better' (whatever that means) than the next person or that they have less status than me; I love people telling me about their achievements- a sense of pride is a great characteristic. Yet, I know I can be proud of my situation, with the knowledge of my achievements. I have a lot more to put on the list and for every small moment where those crazy thoughts come in, 'I'm not enough', all I have to do is remember where I am and what I'm doing.
p.s. 3 Doors Down are upon us Thursday in Stockholm, rock on!! Here's one from the new album:
